i realized today - i stopped listening to music. i dont quite understand. i just stopped. music has always been such a huge part of my life. the ups, the downs, the inbetweens. there was a song for any mood, every situation. i was either listening to music, or had a song meticulously drilling at my brain at all times. lately i've become more reliant on words to express myself. not spoken words, because i've also become somewhat silent. but movie quotes, poems, random thoughts from my own confuzzled head. what does this mean? i still want people to understand me. i still want people to love me. but i am straining and loosely reaching in a diff